ur life sucks wen!

Is life really full of choices?

This topic has being lingering in my head for quiet some time now..i always keep wondering that do we in any way have a choice of being who we are,of choosing wer we wanna be,of who we want to be friends with,of making our own destiny?
Some people may say that ''errr..i dunno..i mean who knows wat the future has in store for us?"
yes one may be a wuss and except this fact of life put in our head by the yash raj film co.but who died and elected yash raj and gang the pope?
i mean aren't we in charge of our own future?
hell yeah we are i say!
life is full of choices its just that u have to get off us ass and grab it by the nuts..most successful ppl did that ..its just that we have to be more smart wen it comes to us!
when i say we have the power to give our life a direction i mean it!
i have have not been the most optimistic person in life but i kinda figured this interesting lil tid bid that the only reason why i was such a negative guy was coz i was surrounded by them ..and by 'them' i mean my parents mostly(i don blame them for any thing but they wer after all the 1st ppl i got to know in my life),my friends(once again i don blame any1 in particular but i feel a few of my pals still live in the dil chahata hai scenario)and the biggest guy who gets the blame is me coz i always allowed these ppl to influence e in the way they wanted me to get influenced.
there comes a time i everyones life when he/she has to make tough choices..choices which may seem very unfair and harsh.
its a openly known and discussed fact that how self-centered i am..how i put my own goal above everybody else's..many don't like the way i am ..hell sometimes even i hate myself for the way i am..but everybody great din become great bcoz they waited for others or thot 'shud i do this? shud i trample an innocent person for my happiness?'
every one has desires in life ..one of my friends has a desire to fall in love,another one wants to life a happy life being an normal person in society,one wants to get married,one wants to be with friends all the time yes they all have choices of being the person they want to be but are they really doing anything bout it??
i don't know !and i don't care coz i have stopped caring!everybody has free advice for any1 but smart ppl who are good at it make a living out it!
i have come to terms with who i am now..i have realized that im the type of guy who can achieve anything and everything he wants to by doing it all alone!
i have wasted too much time by calling up friends who never answer the phone..and wen they do i have to take shit from them summin like 'im busy' wen in reality they are playing cricket or wasting their lives drinking i hope of forgetting their sorrows.
i have wasted too much time thinking about what happened to me in the past
now i know i have a choice ..a choice of believing in my self!
and be rest assured till date whatever i have being telling you ppl about how i will achieve everything i ever dreamed of having ..i will and that too pretty soon..coz mind is a terrible thing to waste!&as sum1 rightly wrote in a testimony that i have royal blood pumping in my vein's!
world im putting you on a notice!im here to win and win i shall!

Nightmare at Andheri Station(east-west)

This is exactly why i don't do public transport!
and by public transport i mean all forms of it..B.E.S.T,our trusty rail network and the horrendous monstrosity called AUTO RICKSHAWS!
i honestly pity the people of mumbai who are subject to such torture all-the -time.
for a major part of my life i have used our trusty public network of transport..but back then a minimum ride in a rik was like 7 bucks,the minimum bus fare was like 2 bucks!
wen i turned 18 i kissed all of it goodbye!coz i had my babayyy ..my sweet child my very own bike!
since then i kinda lost touch with wats been happening in the world of public transport.
all these years like the brat I am I have been assigning my bike servicing needs to my dad's faithful staff..but today since i had nothing better to do I decided to go and deliver my baby to the spa myself!
i got up in the morning dressed up and set off to the bike shop and delivered him me precioussss i got the works for my baby and i was told by the grease monkey at the service center that I WOULD GET A CALL FROM THEM AT 7 P.M
AT 7.15 I CALLED UP THE SHOP AND THEY SAID MY BABY WAS READY AND I CUD PICK HER UP ...
now since i had no bike and i hate traveling in a rik i got into a slightly packed BEST bus .i was thinking 'hey this ain dat bad'..but my was i wrong bout it..
the place wer i was gonna go to was on the west of andheri so bus was the cheapest option i cud think of and afford at the time..i rarely ever use to notice the horrible traffic of this city on my bike ..coz im a good rider and can cut thru traffic at various speed like a German cutting knife!
but today i noticed how bad the traffic in this godforsaken town is!40 mins onboard a bus to reach a place which barely takes 15 mins on a normal day.. i was pissed and decided to go on foot! ok 1 more thing i never notice wen on bike is how i so mercilessly honk at pedestrians till the move outta my way..today the hunter became the hunted!dats all i have to say and yeah i was wearing my new shoes today and the shoe bite i got on both of my lil toes din make things happy for me either!
as i was walkin down a road very seldom taken by me(READ :ANDHERI STATION)i noticed the endless sea of people coming from all direction..a sea of sweaty,smelly,dirty people i don know for some reason kept bumping onto me!and ther was this MOFO who aimed for my SWATCH grr i cud have killed him for dat!
sweaty,thirsty,shoe bitten i reached or rather stumbled or dragged myself i hopes of reunion with my baby..to the darn bike shop just TO FIND IT SHUT!(coz sum1 from the grease pit forgot to mention the shops shuts its gates at 8 fickin pm!)
seeing the lock on the gates i started banging and kicking on it and at the same time shouting at the security guard and bitched how these fuktards at the service center wer unqualified to do a job which any guy with an I.Q OF 15 CUD DO!
broken and shattered i started walking back toward home coz i cud not find a empty bus ..at one point i was so desperate to sit dat i actually started to hunt for a rik!(yes i know im a sell out!)
but surprise surprise the rickshaw lobby got to me!they wer not willing to give me a ride ..even to hell wer all of em r gonna end up!as i was dragging myself to god knows wer i relied n the last option..which meant pussying outt and calling my dad's staff and asking em to pick me up from wer i was stranded..and yes i did bitch out and called for help..but apparentlythe new kid who rides my old bike is quiet a evel kanivel and made me beg to sweet lord for mercy!eyes sthu i decided not to speak a work and accept my death today..but sum1 up der really hates me so he decided to keep me here and watch me in full misery and agony!
god bless the public transport system in this city..coz after today only you people are gonna be using it!