The most beautiful feeling!

No matter how hard i try to deny this !

no matter how much i say to each and everyone of you people!

no matter how much shots i take at others for going through this!

i just cannot deny the fact that even super -humans like me fall in...errrr... love!!!

i always keep on saying to myself that .."man love ain't for you man!"

after a really horrid experience with love a long time back ..i thought i wud never walk down this road again!!

BUT HERE I AM !!!...BITTEN BY THE BUG AGAIN(FUKKK!!!!)

don gemme wrong i really loved the feeling the first time..everything used to look and feel so good !....but eventually all goods things come to an end..so did the so called "love" that i had in my heart for that particular girl!!

but why am i talkin about the past?

i always was the types who wud sit on the sidelines and watch others go through the misery!!!(evil?yes !)

but in the past few days my like had done a 180 in more than one way!

i have changed !

I'm a new man!

the world is a better place after all!

I'm in love!!!!!

yes !

yes !

yes!!!

yay!

whooo!!!

I'm totally in love!

i never thot i wud be here ever again in this lifetime!

life is sweet!!!

O.K now that i have it out of my system...

all i want to say is that..love is such a weird feeling!

it can even turn weirdos like me into humans

but y do we fall in love?

coz we have to?

coz ppl have written books r

made movies about it?

r due to hormonal imbalance within r body??

r just coz we are attracted to a person in ways which we cant explain!

even i cant answer this question coz im lovestruck myself!

trust me !

i am a real romantic guy!

(CMON MAN LEMME BRAG A LIL BIT..I'M IN love)

making dinner for that some1 special..

picking out the most lovely bunch of roses..

buying candies..

splurging on the 1 u love..

gazing into her eyes aimlessly..

yes i can do that coz.. dam it I'm in LOVE!!!!!!!

IS THIS "FAIR" ENUF FOR YA???

The Brits RULED US FOR ALMOST 400 LOOOONG YEARS...we din like it a bit ..we hated those 'whiteys' for all the hell they put us through.we fought like wimps and won our independence from those ppl!
(not many ppl know of this interesting fact that Britan only let go of us in 1947 coz after the 2nd world war they wer completely depleted of all their powers and wer in no condition to fend off the non-violent struggle led by Gandhi..so they took the easy way out by givin us wad we wanted!)
...and 60 years later we are celebrating our freedom thanks to free patriotic ad's by airtel and other money grabbing corporates! fair enough..
we are shallow,hypocritical ppl!we are Indian and we jus need any reason to get a day off from our work so we can watch the I-day parade and pretend to hold our heads high...wen we don even know y we'r doing it!! JAI HIND!

now!!!... here is wer the point i wanna make to u ppl begins...
we fought white folks endlessly for a long long time ...we shed a lotta blood ...lotta tears...to achieve our freedom from the so called white boys of britian!

we are proud to be Indians yes i know that...but wad makes me wanna jump off of a ledge is that we are so narrow minded and shallow that inspite of all the hate we had for the whiteys,we today love em and forgave them and
wad makes things even worse is is those disgusting ad's that these cosmetic companies run on the tube which tells us to believe blindly that 'if u ain fair u ain there'

wad i still don get is... we fight white ppl for a long time and we today ourselves discriminate between fair and dark skinned people in our very own country!!

i kept quiet so far coz these ad's only targeted women(sorry!!!)...but now with the introduction of FAIR AND HANDSOME ...they made it personal!!!!!

who the fuck gave these people the right to make us dark skinned people feel like we don't deserve to live????

I as a kid have been called a lotta names including KAALIYA,BLACKIE etc,etc i din like it a bit and don like it even now!
hell !fuck these people ...these fair boys thought or rather still think that dark ppl have summin wrong in their blood ...that made us inferior to them!!!

fukking assholes!

and to add insult to injury these fairness cream ppl are only making the fukkers feel good about the hurtful things they say!!!
Vivek nayak never takes crap from anyone! no1 can tell me dat i don look good coz im dark!!!screw u !if u have a different opinion than mine!!!
i know i cant change the world...but if any of u ppl enjoyed teasin a dark skinned person..u better thin twice!

i have beat all the pretty boys at their own game!!!while they roam with not so good lookin fair grls ..i have rubbed it on their faces wen i went 1up on em'!!!!and boy!lemme tell u i loved to see the expression n those ppl's faces !!!!

and if u still think u are superior to me...good luck working in that call center!!!(newsflash:it ain even a real job!!!dude!)
i admit ..that one point in time the cream ppl had gotten to me!!!they had managed to change me...but i realized im better off by the way i look ...i realized dat i am better off by being myself!!!

don hate the PLAYA hate the
GAME!

u still think u are better than me?????

DATE WITH A FRIEND.....

I'll be honest here ...yours truly has not been on a date in a really ..really long time...since joining hotel management i have not got much chance to go out with a female !(yes its true!..sad ..but true!)i always like the feeling of meeting someone new!but as all u people know only females i get to meet are....errrr...wait a min..i don meet many females these days!
i really miss the game of dating....i really do!
i generally go all out on dates..flowers,Candy's,nice place to go...i generally have everything chalked out!..Boy! i miss the good ol' days!
I'm not being a pompous ass wen i say that i know how to make a grl feel good on a date!...but hey some ppl are born talented!!!!he he~!
but i have become lazy these day's...i have almost forgotten all the good places in mumbai!
this Sunday ...i was bored and desperately wanted to get outta my house!!and so did my friend(a girl who i wont name!)so we decided to go on was i call a friendly date...which involves everything i wud do normally on a date minus the flattery!and oh ya also the physical part!(like i get any normally!)the girl i went out with ..is a really close fren of mine!i mean she knows me in and out!we never get to meet each other coz of r hectic schedules but we had free time this Sunday and decided to meet up!
lemme get things straight first by sayin that even though my fren is a real pretty,sweet girl ther was,there is not and there will be nothing between us except our beautiful relation we share called friendship!
its generally she who takes me out but this time i decided i can't be a free loader forever!(yes even i have got dignity and self respect left in me!)
ok so we meet up!and it was really nice to see her after a long long time!she was looking good as usual and i din look bad either !(for a change!!!)see the problem of taking a old fren out anywer is that she knows how i can spend a lot on a date and become a real kanjoos guy wen it comes to frenz!so she will obviously be more demanding!
so after a Lotta of disagreement on places to goto we decided to go to a mocha!(of all places)so as usual i went all out for her and ordered the best things on the menu!(yes i know its cheap!)but spending time with my lovely fren was more important than the food!(yes i know cheap again!)
we had a Lotta things to discuss...like me!... and how good i was looking these days!(hehe!)and ya i also let her cut in and say a few good things about me!!!
but all in all i was really happy to see her coz we know each other so well it was like we wer a married couple(lame joke ..i knw!) but WTF! we did care about any1 ..i mean y shud we?it soo much fun wen ur with a grl and actually oogle at a grl with a nerdy boy..who was wearing a nice short short skirt!!(the grl was wearing the skirt..jus to be precise)or or flirt with the grl sitting on the nex table via eye contact...!man i was loving it!it felt soo good!
at the end of the day i come back with a sense of pride in me and the satisfaction of meeting my lovely friend...and thinking ...why can't all dates be like the one i had today........

THE BREAKUP

men go out with thier frenz for a wild night out drink their asses off and forget about it....

while women all go to thrir frenz place eat a lotta chocolate ice cream and burn the gifts the guy gifted and try a come up with a plot for revenge!

Me and u can rant all about it,
bitch about him/her,
tell frenz that he/she was a asshole/bitch.

or for a change y not shut up?yes!shut up!i really mean it!
i am not intrested in hearing wad u have to say about ur sad love lives!i'm sick of it!honest!

i know im being Hippocratic here..but hey its me we'r talking about!im a slut for attention and limelight!i jus love it wen ppl tak about me(he he!)

on the other hand have we ever sat down and thought about wad went wrong or why me?
of course yes!we all have !

but for a change i request all people that instead of blaming the other person or pointing fingers at others ....jus look at your self in the mirror and ask the same question or try blaming urself r simply just stare at ur self not saying a word!
difficult isn't it? i knew it !

whenever we fail we naturally as humans blame everyone in the world ..but never our self!that's how selfish and delusional we all are!we always think rather highly of ourselves don we?in our mind we all think we are the most wonderful/sweet/desirable ppl in this world!..but is there any truth to this at all?have u ever thought?

whenever a relation fails we all during the breakup at some point all try to reconcile...then all the reconciliation turns into anger ....and the anger into revenge ...or ultimately a self comsuming obsession.i have been in all of these phases!trust me and the last one is no fun at all!it will if not kill you ...but surely destroy your happiness and everyone Else's around you.

as some of my close Friends know i have been in my share of relations mostly with pretty the pretty one's i have noticed the attraction only lasts till the pretty one has said 'yes' to u...and wen u get to know her u always come out disappointed knowing she is not as pretty as she looks..!

i know a guy who met a grl on orkut(of all places!)pretty gal and a avg. guy with low self-esteem she the confused types and he the aimless types who values love more than money .he sacrificed a whole academic yr for her she doesn't care neither does he..coz they are in "love"..guess opposites do really attract(rich grl falling for a middle class boy...oooow filmy!)but then again who is a person like me who makes it a point to deliberately mess up his relations with a grl coz he has openly confessed that he is a selfish man for whom money/power and all materialistic need hold more importance in life than anything else!(see i made it about my self again!gaarrrr!!!)

"love is a strange poison it won kill u but
will make u feel unimaginable amounts of pain!"

..but we never learn do we? having said all of this i will probably be the one who will be telling you that guys im in a relation again.!..but next time i will try and keep my mouth shut ...so that wen i fail ...again ..i won't have to tell my side of the story ...in which u all will know and feel sorry for me and hate for the grl ...but in reality ..deep down inside i know i am to blame for it!